A lost love

or was it lust

or was it just

a longing in your heart.

a thought

The Smile

My soul collapses in a pile.

I want to remember what it was like.

Do you think of me?

I think of you

but I really don’t want to.

Times long past

should stay there

and thinking about them

make times present past as well.

But I stay there.

Times right now

remind me of those long ago

although not really

hey, I’m only 20 years old.

Even so

I find myself stuck in a rut

And I sometimes doubt

that I’ll ever find

someone to love and stuff.

Originally written on 1998.04.12