I'm not sure what to think

My mind is muddled

My brain is baffled

The inside of my noggin

feels like a runaway toboggan

My dreams are filled

with anxiousness

fraught with unending battles

concerning

only and evermore

stupid and ridiculous things

Seinfeldian nightmares

to the core

Where is the desired smile

the laughter and

the not-so hidden fire

Why can't I partake

in some witty banter

and other things

Where is the story

beginning middle end

Tales centered on a dramatic adventure

Meeting folks from the distant past

creating new ones on the fly

Searching my memory for face or a name

To be lost in a dream

of my subconscious making

To awake in the morning

reaching for that certain fading something